Recovery

"Ask me whatever you want, I promise to grant it." he said. She with defiance,"Don't ask me that, because whatever I want, you can never grant me." He questioned her asking what and then she just whispered,"I want you." Karma had finally played it's game, karma had finally bitch slapped her. This was enough to make him walk away and her hopes also. 

Her eyes had never shed such stormy, scalding, heart-wrung tears, lying there in despair, staring at herself cry in the mirror and pull her hair, screaming to release all the pain she held within. She could no longer handle the pain, the heartbreak. Because now she missed the late night calls, and the morning wake up calls. For once he said that he would've never left her, no matter how hard things would've become. He said that he wishes she would see herself from his eyes and see what difference she made in his life. He said that she was the one who taught him how to fall in love, he said that he fell in love with all of her, her flaws, her laughter, her dumb jokes, her anger and every small thing about her made him only fall deeper in love. The human heart tends to cling on false hope, go against all the reasons to believe the fact, every night she wished for him to call her and say those magical words so that everything could just be all right again. 

She thought she couldn't have been hurt worse, just when she came to know that, he's in love. He's in love with someone. The world stopped to make sense to her. Logic and reason were no longer to penetrate. She could no longer handle the desolation, she could not longer keep her head held high. With every drop of her blood falling on the floor, staining the floor with her love for him, she said, she was happy for him. She said that her happiness laid in his happiness. But was this true? All what she wanted now was to be alone. She laid forsaken in a corner, reading all the letter he had given her.

But for solitude also breaks with it's yearning. You can't live alone here, you have to feel all the feelings of the world, you have to love again. Well haven't we haven't seen babies fall down while they're learning to walk? So do they give up there? No, they stand up and try again. Just because she had been hurt once doesn't mean she'll be hurt all the time and give up. She had to build herself up again and learn to love again, she had to find the other half which would complete her.

Jodi Picoult once said,"Once you had put the pieces back together, even though you may look intact, you were never quite the same as you'd been before the fall."

Maybe she could never be the same person she was again, she might never get there but for once you lose yourself, theres no looking back, its a call for a new beginning.